I took a nice, long hiatus because…well, because I can. 

I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again:  I do this because it’s fun.  Unlike your other girls that do this because it’s their job, I log on when I’m feeling naughty.

Plus I’m still holding issue with the fact that I got nothing for Valentine’s Day from any of you.  :-P 

So, in lieu of the missing flowers and trinkets I should have been showerred with, I’ve spent time spoiling MYSELF! 

My flower bed is looking lovely, and I’ve just orderred three azaleas for the front.

Looooovvveee flowering plants and shrubs.

I might be on tonight, we’ll see.

*kisses*

Sara

I wanted to concoct some kind of elaborate story about why I haven’t been around, but the truth is…I have a life. 

Currently I’m throwing myself into gardening, getting myself back into college and going to LapBand appointments.  Plus I have an anniversary party to go to in another couple of weeks.  It’s just been a lot, and I don’t like to log on to NiteFlirt just because I need money.

I log on when I have a nice, easy lul in my life to fill.

So I’ll be on for a few hours.  Call me if you like.  ;-)  I have the listings with assinine titles (they just work for me much better than fake-ass stuff).

I wonder how “rockin’” it would be if they knew what kind of a pathetic turd he was when he was young. 

So is that how I should play it?  I’m a nice, normal girl who digs on making money doing naughty things.  But should I lie and play it up like I’ve been a whore since I was in the womb? 

I doubt you’ll think it’s sexy that I was Student Council treasurer, made the President’s List (it’s a high school equivalent of the Dean’s List) every marking period, was in Great Books, or played JV volleyball.

But you might think it was sexy that when my Math teacher placed his warm hand on my back to commend me on my work it sent shivvers up my spine and got me a bit wet.

The fact that I volunteered to make my Drawing teacher in college his own web site that would make class notes available to his students … it probably wouldn’t turn a head…

But the time that my suitemates and I collected various liquids for a week and threw them out of our tenth story dorm room at noisy sorority bitches might bring a smile to your face.

Or the time that I had a secret rendezvous with a 55 year old man on viagra one night just to see what it was like to fuck a man over twice my age…

I don’t know.  I’m not fake.  I don’t like to lie.  But I think I’ve done enough shit in my life to make me worth your time. 

Sign up for a siz month membership ($10) and get ten trees (of your choice from a given selection) for FREE!

And then you can enjoy deep discounts on the rest of the trees they have for sale. 

For those of you with significant others, I can’t think of a lovelier gift than a lilac bush or a hydrangea.  They come as roots, so you have to be patient…but you could say something to her like “It grows just like our love.” or “It will get more beautiful each year…just like you!”  ;-D

Why do I always venture down the road less travelled?

Most people do it for attention.  Attention’s nice, I guess, but I’m not too big on it.  I like to give attention more than receive it.

So why?  It came to me late last night while I was watching this story on TV about a widow who had to struggle through the welfare system with her three kids.  She worked so hard and now she’s a successful lawyer with a nice suburban house and kids in college.

She’s a success story.  Watching her story made me feel good.  And THAT’s why I’ve always ventured for radical change.

Someday I want people to hear about, read about, know about me - and I want that to make them feel good.

“is niteflirt real”

Yes and no.  Yes, NF women are sitting at home taking your calls.  Yes, a lot of them use their real pictures.  Yes, they put up their own listings (though sometimes they buy all the fancy artwork and code from a designer if they’re just not good at it…but they picked it out).  Yes, we enjoy the things we write about in our listings (we wrote it, we CHOOSE to do it! )

No, they aren’t looking for a relationship irl (they can give you the GFE, but they won’t be pleasantly suprised if you show up at their door…and some of them own guns! ).  No, not all NF women use their own pictures (some of them have real life jobs/families/etc that don’t allow them to be that candid…but the fact that they still want to do PS anyway says something about them, right? ).  No, not all PSO’s get off on EVERY call (we’re not robots - we can’t rub one off in 2 minutes, and if you’re the fifth call of the night…well…we could just log off if we aren’t going to get off…but we choose to take your call because we like getting guys off!).  No, not everything we write in our listings is something we like to do irl (we may fantasize about being choked/wearing a dog collar/whathaveyou while having sex…but it might just be a fantasy.

I hope that clears that up.

“bbw panty sniffer”

This made me laugh because I’m sure Google sent that person to my entry about used panty buying losers.  Hahaha…sorry buddy, hope that didn’t kill your ego.  *stiffled giggle*

But…this week someone listened to my recording and I had an appointment request.  I guess NF is picking up.

So I’m on tonight for a bit…if you want to call, I’m on.  ;-*

I filled out my paperwork to start my LapBand appointments and mailed that in.  Then I went online and applied for college in the fall.  Then I redid a couple of my NF listings.

*sigh*

I’m excited about all of it.  I feel rejuvenated.  Especially since the weather is slowly getting nicer around here.  Springtime always makes me feel so much more alive.

And soon I’ll be starting my garden!  I already have a bunch of peat pellets and seeds.  Tomatoes are a definite again this year.  Green peppers, cucumbers and probably garlic.  Aside from that…we’ll see.

I just feel like I’m starting a great new chapter in life and it’s soooo great!  I’m half tempted to just nix the NiteFlirt thing to boot since calls are far and few between lately.  I could re-do the site into a personal blog and make money on AdWords. 

My real life is actually a lot more interesting than the NiteFlirt fantasy sometimes.  This is why I’m going to be taking down my pictures and video I have for sale sometime soon (I was hoping to do it this week, but I don’t want to get too ahead of myself).  I really feel this need to slowly back out of the phone sex world soon before I become too bitter about it.

If I take it all too seriously and not get anywhere I might just get a call one night and blast them with all my anger and frustration.  And that’s not too sexy, trust me.  ;-D

Besides, I’m lucky.  I have a lot more going for me than this.  And I plan to take actions that will allow me to enjoy it all while I can.

http://www.amazon.com/Goodmans-Rabbit-Vibrator-with-Pearls/dp/B0001EK4Z6/ref=sr_1_4?ie=UTF8&s=home-garden&qid=1204334226&sr=8-4

An admirer bought it for me, and he has already had a nice, long, FREE call with me for buying it.  I told you…I appreciate the gifts.  And I always want you to know exactly how much!  *lol*

But I’m not selfish, if you want to know exactly how much I enjoy it why don’t you call me tonight and be my co-pilot?  ;-*

http://r.yuwie.com/sizzlingsara

Sign up through this link and help make this girl some cash.  It’s a MySpace clone that you get paid for.  You get paid for referrals and paid for profile views.  I’d have a ton of profile views if they allowed me to post my pics on it…alas - no profanity.

Bleh.

…until it hit me.  There’s NOTHING wrong with me.  I attract smart guys that know better than to put themselves in financial danger by calling until they’ve maxed out their credit cards.

The guys that call multiple times a day aren’t calling because they want a service.  They call because they’re addicted to a fantasy.  My pics - they’re real.  You can tell I’m a real girl - not a model. 

The guys that call me want that reality.  They want to know that what you see is what you get.  That makes me feel good.

It makes me feel almost honored to be your choice when you pick up the phone and call me.  Even if I only hear from you once every few weeks…or even just once.

So keep it coming guys.  I’m the real deal…and now I know that you are, too.

I even went on this site to sell panties.  I sold ZERO pairs, and when I really thought about it, and talked it over with a friend, I realized that it’s nothing to feel badly about.  Honestly.  So I’m not the dream girl of panty sniffing weirdos.  Damn…time to kill myself.

Now, before you all get YOUR panties in a bunch let me tell you that there is a WORLD of difference between a guy that likes the smell of his woman’s panties and a guy that goes out online in SEARCH of panties to buy just for the purpose of sniffing. 

I was told that a relationship forms between the buyer and the seller.  A very intimate and personal one.  Well, how intimate and personal can it be when the seller sells to five different guys?  I like the phone sex fantasy world…it’s great - much like the fantasy world between two real lovers.  But the fantasy world between a buyer and seller of used panties…it’s just a flat out creepy lie.

The women spend HOURS in the chat rooms there trying to hook a guy.  And ALL the guys want to hear is how much women love to flash their panties and how much they enjoy the thought of some random guy sniffing their crotch…like a dog!  It’s not like someone can go in there and talk about candlewax, rose thorns and nipple piercing and get a guy interested - no!  It’s all so mundane, it’s sad.

So I ripped into a bunch of them.  Called them losers.  I feel good about that.  The only things they could come up with as a retort was that I was fat and had a gap between my two front teeth.  Honestly?  Really?  Hell, I put my pictures up there…did they think they were telling me something I didn’t already know.

Sadly, all they were telling me was that the truth I was spewing out to them really hit home.  And that’s kind of what I needed.  I needed a place to be cruel today.  It gave me a slight high.  Terrible, right?

But…I get all that out so I don’t have to take it out on you guys!  :-)  Because this is much more fun!  Especially now that I’m not even bothering with meeting quotas and such.  I just put myself out there and see what happens.

Oh, BTW…my site got a query hit for someone searching for WOW.  Now, I’ve never written about World of Warcraft on here - ever.  But it gave me some good ideas that I’ll be using in the near future for some listings.

I think this might be a fun turning point for me…and I REALLY hope it will be for you, too.

What the fuck do I care?

http://www.niteflirt.com/details/SizzlingSara/Mature/7576648

Did you know that NiteFlirt has a special forum for flirts that manage to get over 250 rating points?  I want in that forum!  >:-[

What do they say in there?  Is it cooler than the newbie forum?  Do they throw company parties that the rest of us aren’t invited to?  I wonder about these things…

And you can’t trust people that are already in there…they could be lying to cover up the things that the cool “hip” NF crew do.  Sneaky, sneaky, sneaky.

So, yes.  Please give me five star reviews.  Every time I get a five star review I get 2 rating points added to my score - regardless of how short the call was.  If you think my performance was less than stellar (I hope that’s not the case) then write a nasty written review with the five stars.

I HAVE TO KNOW WHAT GOES ON IN THERE!

If you loved me you’d help.  No really, you would.

Ok, so … my schedule lately has been less than stellar.  I’ve been very busy with some projects.  I’m getting my transcripts ready to fax over to the local college to get back into school…hopefully this fall.

 I’m scheduled to go in for an informational meeting for Lap Band surgery.  The informational meeting is mandatory.  You have to go before you can start going to pre-req appointments.  Usually all of this takes about six months before going under the knife.  It’s all pretty non-invasive as far as surgery goes.  It’s laproscopic, and they don’t actually remove anything.  They just put a band around the stomach and periodically fill it with solution until your appetite is under control.

I like that.  Less chance of infection.

So, I’ve been cutting down my time on NiteFlirt in preparation for the changes ahead.  I’ll still be on…hopefully with enough calls to pay for text books - just not as much.

My website hits have gone up dramatically.  Strange since my call volume hasn’t. 

Speaking of my call volume, I really would like to see it go up.  I know a lot of girls are a-ok with a couple calls a night because they can stretch them out with elaborate and wonderful descriptions.

Uhm, I’m not so great at that.  I’ve never been good at flirting.  My idea of a good date is to invite a guy over, watch a movie, screw his brains out and then kick him out before sunrise.  After that I usually burn his phone number. 

I guess I’m not what you would call a “romantic”?  Not to say I can’t hold a sexual relationship.  I have a lot of guy friends that I hook up with when they and I hit dry spells.  It’s better than having a serious boyfriend because they tend to take you for granted. 

Fuck buddies with the occasional romantic first dates on the side seems to work for me.  I get a consistent stream of sex, and I also get spoiled once in a while by the guys that are trying to impress me with a fantastic first impression.

Speaking of impressing me.  I keep hearing about girls getting things on their wishlists from their callers.  Here I am - I’ve had a wishlist up for a while - and I’ve gotten ZIP!  :-/

Not impressive, guys.  Now, I understand that there are some HUGE ticket items on there (mainly because I’ve heard rumors that occasionally some REAL financial domination pigs start nosing around NF), but I also have some very reasonable items there, too.

I think I’d die of shock if I actually got the roses or the vibrator I’ve been eyeing for Valentine’s Day.  I would have to whip out the camera and take pictures of me with either one and send them to my secret admirer to let them know that they were received.  Along with some free minutes so that I can tell (moan) them how much they were appreciated. 

If anyone were ever to send them.  *hint* *hint*

Anyhow, I’m on tonight for a while.  I might break for about 20 minutes to hop in the shower (I just got off the treadmill), so if it’s before 1 or 2 EST and I’m not on, try again in a few minutes.

*muah*

A couple of my girls and I are going to grab my sister in upstate NY and head to Ottawa for a fun night of debauchery!  So I probably won’t be on on Saturday for too long.  If we get back to the hotel early enough I’ll probably get on that night.

It kind of sucks, since Saturdays are my busier (kinda) days…but OTTAWA!  So much fun.  So much mischeif! 

I love road trips.  Driving around in a car in general…it’s like your own little portable world.  You just have this little space prepped out for your own little pre-party.  Good times.

So, I’m on for literally a few minutes now.  I’ll probably be on tomorrow at regular time.  So CALL ME! 

BTW, like the new site design?  I did it all on my lonesome.  :-*

You’re so hot I want to rub YOU around my puckered little asshole and feel it burn!

You know, it really makes me depressed when that happens?  I see that I’m being clicked.  Hell - I PAY NiteFlirt for those clicks…and no calls.

Was it something I did?

I’m sorry for the erradic schedule, but I’m working on a project.  That and I think I’m feeling a bit of burnout.  I need a mini vaca. 

Refreshing, tasty, makes ya horny…it’s SO ME! 

I’m going to be on most of today…give me call if you can break away. 

Not to mention the hours I spent familiarizing myself with Photoshop to create the image. 

I’m happy with it, what do you think?  :-*